The photo that graced the cover of the Whitworthian.            Courtesy of Greg Moser

It’s been a really, really long time since I’ve been on here. I can’t give you any one particular reason why but as I make my final preparations for the South African Olympic Trials I feel the need to put out a thought or two 🙂

The last few weeks have been a bit of a roller-coaster, one that has been incredible and bitterly disappointing at the same time. The end of March saw me swim in my last NCAA DIII National Championships in Indianapolis, Indiana, a meet that I savored up as much as I could but one that I would rather forget quickly. I had some very lofty goals going into the meet and based on what I have done in practice and duel meets this season I knew that my body and mind were in the right place to achieve each one of the goals I had.

For one reason or another that was not to be though. I struggled through the meet, the timing of my stroke was off, the rhythm, the feel was all out of sync. Coach Steve and I could fix it one moment and see brilliance and then lose it the next moment.  I ran across a blog post on Breaststroke written by a swim coach whose swimmer seemed to be going through the same deal I was during the week and his thoughts summed my feelings up perfectly.

“I swear sometimes that breaststroke is one of the great puzzles of the universe.  Sometimes it is more spiritual than scientific.  Sometimes it is the girl you had a crush on in school who is mean to you when you smile at her. Sometimes it is the beast you tamed and caged that decides to break out of the zoo or the puppy that runs away on your birthday.  Damn you breaststroke.  Why can’t you just show up for your damn appointments on time!  We scheduled this appointment six months ago!  How rude!” 

Despite the frustrations I still managed to win both the 100 & 200 Breaststroke allowing me to successfully cross off one of my goals for the week. But I knew something had to be done before we headed to Olympic Trials.

The last two weeks since NCAA’s have been incredible, both in the pool and outside of it. I’ve done things in the pool that I have never done before, but outside of the water I have come to realize a number of things about the journey I have been on for the last 10 years. What I have experienced since returning from NCAA’s has given me a huge boost of confidence as I begin my journey to Durban on Sunday. I’m excited to race.

“I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” – Matthew 17:20